Losing someone that is so important to you is one of the hardest things you’ll ever experience. My mind knows my mom is gone, but my heart just won’t accept it. Everyone says that it will take time, but I don’t think I will ever be able to get over this. I feel so utterly broken. One minute I’m ok and coping and the next, I’m sobbing uncontrollably.
She was such a strong woman and we had been through hell together. We survived because we had each other. Now, I don’t know what to do, I feel lost. Writing seems to help, but it’s only a temporary fix. I watch videos and I want to call her and tell her how much I love her, but I can’t and then I start to cry all over again.
I don’t know if this is going to get easier, can it get easier? I don’t see how. I just can’t see through the pain.
I’ve posted elsewhere, she was there when I came into this world and I was there when she left.