It’s been eight days…

Losing someone that is so important to you is one of the hardest things you’ll ever experience. My mind knows my mom is gone, but my heart just won’t accept it. Everyone says that it will take time, but I don’t think I will ever be able to get over this. I feel so utterly broken. One minute I’m ok and coping and the next, I’m sobbing uncontrollably. 20141218_172854

She was such a strong woman and we had been through hell together. We survived because we had each other. Now, I don’t know what to do, I feel lost. Writing seems to help, but it’s only a temporary fix. I watch videos and I want to call her and tell her how much I love her, but I can’t and then I start to cry all over again.

I don’t know if this is going to get easier, can it get easier? I don’t see how. I just can’t see through the pain.

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I’ve posted elsewhere, she was there when I came into this world and I was there when she left.

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I don’t even know how to start…

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On July 26, 2017, my mother passed away. I feel broken. My mother was the one person in this world that I knew without a doubt that had my back. A mother’s love is unconditional. That’s something I never fully realized until I had a child of my own. Then it was like the scales fell from my eyes and I appreciated all the sacrifices that she made for me.

Now that she’s gone, I feel this gaping hole in my heart. Sure, I have moments where I’m ok, but I have more when I’m not. I keep thinking about how beautiful she was, how she had the ability to make a friend anywhere, and that she loved to help people.

If I’m honest, I am not coping well with her loss. It’s only four days and it feels like she’s just on vacation and she’ll call me any moment and then it hits me. I’m never going to get that phone call. I’m never going to feel her arms around me, hugging me, telling me she loves me and I lose it all over again. This pain is unlike I’ve ever felt. I lost my grandmother, and I grieved, but it was such a different grief. What I’m feeling is utter devastation. It’s like a wrecking ball has brought down the life that I have built. I am so used to calling her five or six times a day to make sure she’s ok. I’d go over to make sure her medicine was all set for the next two weeks.

I am broken, shattered into a million little pieces and I have no idea how to put them back together. I know that it will take time and that hole that she left behind will remain, but as time goes on, that hole will be filled with the memories that we shared, the love and the bond that, no matter where she is, can never be broken.

I can rest in the knowledge that I was with her to the end like I promised her I would be. I took care of her to the end, just like I promised I would be. I have no regrets because I made sure she was taken care of in life, and in death, I still am. I may feel weak now, but I know this, I am my mother’s daughter and I will survive, just like she taught me to.

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The New Doctor Who Is…..

Jodie Whittaker!

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8 years of suffering under Barack Obama

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The sentence I hear most from well-meaning, conservative friends since President Trump’s election is this: “We suffered 8 years under Barack Obama.”

Fair enough. Let’s take a look.

The day Obama took office, the Dow closed at 7,949 points. Eight years later, the Dow had almost tripled.

General Motors and Chrysler were on the brink of bankruptcy, with Ford not far behind, and their failure, along with their supply chains, would have meant the loss of millions of jobs. Obama pushed through a controversial, $8o billion bailout to save the car industry. The U.S. car industry survived, started making money again, and the entire $80 billion was paid back, with interest.

While we remain vulnerable to lone-wolf attacks, no foreign terrorist organization has successfully executed a mass attack here since 9/11.

Obama ordered the raid that killed Osama Bin Laden.

He drew down the number…

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Blood Moon and Dark Harvest are on SALE!

 

 

 

Get Blood Moon here and Dark Harvest here.

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How many of you would play this game?

I would!

 

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Giveaway!

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The next four people who like Dark Moon Series, Shelly M. Burrows-Author and Michael S. Stewart Facebook pages will get a bookmark. (Open to U.S. residents only at this time.

When you’ve liked those pages, follow THIS LINK and let us know!

 

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Why is @Sony @Playstation blocking my IP?

Over the weekend I had the misfortune of having my IP blocked by Playstation. I tried to log-in to the network so I could play my games online only to find error code  WS-37397-9 and Playstation tech support was zero help.

This error code means that you will not be able to access PS Store, download games or play any games that need the network to function. I can’t access the network on my PS3 or any device that uses my home wifi. I tried to sign in via my cell phone and it worked as long as I wasn’t connected to my wifi.

There was no official explanation other than I somehow violated Sony’s terms of service. They said that even if I didn’t do anything, something on my network flagged my IP. The Playstation support tech told me that there was no way to remove the block, I had to get a new IP address. My internet provider was fantastic in helping me. However, I am still blocked. I called Playstation yet again and another technician gave me ports to open by my internet service provider. I was on the phone with them for over an hour and eventually, all ports were open and I tried to sign into PSN again.

It didn’t work.

I will have to call Playstation support AGAIN. Swapping out the modem to get a new IP worked for one night, but the next day it was blocked again.

I pay for Playstation Plus and have games for my son on pre-order. If this is not resolved, then I will be asking Sony for a full refund. I have been a loyal Playstation customer from the very beginning and I find it extremely frustrating to be blown off and not given any answers. Sony shouldn’t treat their customers with such regard. Perhaps if I had some explanation, I could fix it, but if I don’t know what’s wrong, what am I to do?

According to Down Detector, Playstation is having issues, yet when I spoke to support, they denied there were issues.

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I don’t know if any of you have had this situation happen, if you have, how was it resolved? I can’t go swap out my modem every day, so if you have any advice for me, it would be appreciated.

If you’re experiencing this, you are not alone.

 

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Tyrannosaurus Rex’s Bite Force Measured 8,000 Pounds, Scientists Say

The teeth of Tyrannosaurus rex have been called “killer bananas,” and a new study in the journal Scientific Reports shows just how hard those fearsome chompers could clamp down.

“What we came up with were bite forces of around 8,000 pounds,” says Gregory Erickson of Florida State University. “That’s like setting three small cars on top of the jaws of a T. rex — that’s basically what was pushing down.”

Erickson and his colleague Paul Gignac, of Oklahoma State University, initially looked at the bite forces produced by different crocodile species.

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GIVEAWAY TIME!

We’re giving away a 925 silver Celtic Tree of Life pendant and a shieldmaiden bookmark to those who leave a review for Dark Harvest. If you haven’t read it yet, don’t fret! You can still get it and read in time for this contest! You can buy it here.  If you’ve read it already, enter here. Giveaway starts at midnight tonight and runs through June 30th! Good Luck!

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